See me?

Do you see me when I'm made shallow? When my eyes see nothing? When I'm detached and feeling small When the music fails to sing to me? - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

For Ani

I "helped" Ani open her Christmas presents, and I really got the feeling that she enjoyed it. I can get so angry at the world for what happened to Ani. I will do everything for her, but I'm angry at the fact she's lost pretty much everything. But what good does being angry do? I let it go, but it comes back sometimes. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Micah, my son

Micah, do you notice me passing my fingers through your hair? I'm trying to burn that feeling into my hand, so that I could never forget it. Do you feel my hand on your back as you play? I want your warmth with me when I'm alone. Do you hear the tone of my voice when I say "I love you"? I want you to hear those words down deep to your very soul. Do you notice me balancing keeping you safe and letting you explore and experience? This is the hardest thing I do right now. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

If I had one "selfish" prayer answered

I would have Ani be able to tell me the following things:

I love you daddy, and mommy, Nate and Micah

I know that you and the rest of my family love me

God has asked me to stay strong

I asked Jesus to save me, I want to be in heaven

I understand that you and mommy and the doctors are trying their best to help me

I understand that my injury is not a punishment from God for something I did

I remember Nate, and I miss him

I understand everything you say

I am learning new things every day



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