Friday, April 30, 2021

What is the depth of my heart?

How much can I love?

Before my daughter was born,

I thought love could be measured. 

I thought love came from a finite heart. 

Ani proved me wrong. 

When she was born, a spark exploded.

It lit up a bottomless well. 

I cannot explain my love for my children

to myself, much less explain it to them. 

When you love, you allow yourself to be vulnerable. 

Vulnerable to incredible joy and sometimes 

incredible sadness. 

My children, regardless of where they are, keep my heart going. 

Monday, April 12, 2021

 Some updates:


I haven't posted in a while, and I apologize.  The "Covid season" has done a number on all of us.  We are all fine over here.  Christy, Ani and I are fully vaccinated, and we are so happy that Ani is protected.


Ani is back in school and loving the socializing.  She misses her friends so much, though she did get to see her friends through Zoom and such.  Her friends are so important to her.  We just had a status zoom meeting with her teachers at high school.  One of them is the girls choir director.  She says that Ani is SOOO happy to be in the group, and the other singers are really happy that Ani is enjoying herself.  I love the bonds that can be made even when communication (verbal) is difficult.


Micah is in a boys team in his gymnastics gym. Their team took 3rd in state this year!  Very proud that he has the focus and drive and enjoyment for this activity.


I am working from home and have been blessed to work on a medical device that treats Covid patients.  I have worked on a couple of Emergency Use Authorizations for the FDA for more treatment options for Covid patients.


Christy is working from home also, and is still working as a speech therapist as much as she can while working through Zoom.

Friday, July 3, 2020

When the world makes sense

Darkness in my eyes
My son beside me, on my arm
Trusting, he sleeps
The world is small and warm and peaceful

Sunday, May 24, 2020

A Memorial Day poem


A thin sheet of ice melts in the spring uncovering an upheaval of wild currents. Churning and swirling, they grab and pull you down. Tears flood over the banks.  Calmness never returns, but an equilibrium is found within the maelstrom. 

Monday, March 16, 2020

A new world

A new world is forming around us.
Above us, falling about us like snow.
At times, you see the world you know past the snowfall.
Then you look down and see that the world has changed.
You think the world may never return to your memory’s version.
The fear and uncertainty clouds you into thinking this new world is a dream
A dream not worth remembering, not worth seeing.
A dream that is nonetheless something to be respected and obeyed.
At least until the dream of spring is no longer a dream.
Where the world of our memory returns.

Wednesday, March 4, 2020

Poem about Ani

Take the love from my heart,
shine a sunrise on it. 
There you’ll see my daughter. 
Greater than the expanse
of the night sky with its stars,
is her importance to me. 
Her love and spirituality humbles me,
that I should be her father. 

Thursday, April 25, 2019

Whither my guilt Lord?
May it affect me in ways unknown?
Do I question myself in light of that guilt?
Do I express this unknowingly?
I’m sorry to those I hurt wrongly. 
Who knows all their demons. 
God only knows our unknown motivations. 
Whither my anxiety?
Is it strangely driven here?
What do I release to you?
What do I cling to wrongly?