Shopping with leaden legs...

I just went shopping for Christy's birthday present, and for presents to celebrate Nate's birthday.  We celebrate Nate's birthday by buying presents, wrapping them, then at the party we all open them to show each other.  After that we donate the toys to Toys for Tots.  It was _SO_ hard to walk into Target.  I had to force myself along.  So hard to think of age relevant toys for Nate's personality.  Nothing within me can accept that my little boy is gone from my sight.