The day has come...

The day has come.
How heavy this day is.
I have now lived more time since your birth without you than with you.
It has not been easy.
It is the hardest thing I've ever done, to live without you,
second to that is my concern for your sister.
Oh Nate, daddy remembers you, daddy misses you, daddy wants to be with you.
God, help me keep Nate alive in Ani's heart and memory.
God, give me words to help me bring Nate to life and love in Micah's heart.
God, grant me a vision of Nate in heaven.
God, grant me a simple taste of how eternity with you and my loved ones dwarfs this meager existence here.
God, give my love to my son.