I am thankful that it was placed before me and how much I enjoy the comfort, calmness, enjoyment, enrichment (and even the frustration) it brings me. I even enjoy just how difficult it is to learn. This is the only thing in my life that I've had where I deeply WANT to practice and study, and push myself through the hard parts. When I play, I enjoy everything, even the exercises, and I try to make even those be as emotive and musical as I can. I see the interesting battle within me, between the complicated interplay of muscle tension vs relaxed states. The duality of me wanting to control it (and it refusing) and me wanting to let go and release what's inside me through it. When I'm playing, there's nothing else around me.
I prayed in thanks.
I prayed in marvel of this thing called music that was gifted to us in this world.
I prayed in respect of this little wooden object that has so many aspects to it.
I prayed in request to continue to learn and advance. To be worthy of a new instrument and playing in an orchestra sometime in the future.
I prayed in thanks for the amazing teacher I have that I just "picked at random".
I prayed to be able to play vibrato someday. :)
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