How is it possible?

How is it possible,
That you should be taken from us,
By a simple force,
By a random occurance,
By something I felt coming, but couldn't interpret,
By something malevolent.
You're still here!
You breath marks time with my heart.
Your voice resonates within my own.
My actions are still affected by your earthly needs.
You've never left, though I can't feel you like I want,
Can't hear you like I want,
Can't touch you like I want,
Can't make you laugh like I want,
Can't play with you,
Can't teach you,
My heart bursts with unfulfilled expression,
It comes out in glances heavenward,
In aches,
In prayers,
In conversations with Ani,
In tears, so many tears.
In loving prayers for health for other infants and toddlers I see.
In hopes and dreams for another sibling for my children.