I've read recent news items about child abductions and I've come to realize that this act represents kind of a combination of the two things that hurt me most right now. However, I don't think that it compares to really being in the situation of having your child abducted and not knowing.
I have this constant battle of "knowing" Nate is not here anymore, and the greatest desire of my heart to be with him. This is a tangible war within me, one that sometimes I only get to watch, and not try to affect either side. There's also great pain in not being able to express my love for Nate directly. I must ask God or Jesus or the Holy Spirit (or all three, don't know how it works) to give my love to him.
I also have this dread...dread about now knowing how Ani will recover, not knowing what her future will hold, that I have somehow failed in my plans to watch her discover this world and help her to her full potential. Certainly Ani has more potential in this world, just different than before, but only God knows for sure.
So, I look at these and wonder if parents of abducted children feel this battle over whether they should grieve over their children vs. holding out hope against despair of the worst possible outcome. Being held in limbo over whether their child has _any_ future at all. Being unable to express their love to their child, comfort them in a time of potential terror. Feeling defeated maybe by not being able to protect their child against something heinous. I think that I only scratch the surface here, and I pray for parents of abducted children, that they somehow can get "an answer".
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