Then and now.

I'm at church, singing now. 

I was at church singing 6 years ago. 

We put a little boy in daycare today. 

6 years ago we did the same for a different little boy. 

We skipped out then, all hand-in-hand. 

A girl who still walked and talked. 

A boy who still lived. 

Clueless parents. 

Happy and unaware.

We ate lunch, had naps. 

And then that life turned into this life.

This life is so different, I don't even know how to compare the two. 

It's likely not even useful or healthy to even try.  Even so, as I am by Ani's side as she faces her challenges, and I can't help but think of the difference in the direction her life would have taken.

How much of my inner pain and frustration goes to Micah?  Too much probably.