A revelation on joy

I remember back just after the tornado, when I described to my pastor, how deep inside me I felt this big connection to Jesus? I was thinking about that when our pastor was speaking Sunday about joy and Paul in prison. I remember that time after the tornado that while I felt Jesus with me, I couldn't laugh. Not just the giggle or funny laugh, but the big, deep down laugh that makes you look up to the sky and you feel it throughout your soul. Today I just realized that those laughs come from the same place inside me where the connection to Jesus lives. The real laugh of joy comes from there. I know that now, and will try to remember that from now on. I hope I can relate this revelation to others in times of grief or great stress. A laugh _that_ deep should always remind you of your relationship with Christ. I have been able to laugh like that whenever Ani had even a minor victory. We know that we would never have made it through this without Christ, and now I know another way he keeps us going in times of great difficulty.