Too quiet

Oh, how I miss hearing "Kaka klease" (cracker please), and Ani's singing.  I want to hear Nate's "Da-da" or "Ma-ma" again.  I want my son back.  I want my daughter all the way back.  I want to hear Nate's toddler "stompy walk" on the hardwood floor.  I want to hear him say "Einteins" (for "Little Einsteins").  I can hear him say "Choo-choo" on one of the videos.  I can hear him squeal in the dancing video.  I am so sad.  There's such a huge part of me that's missing.  I want to hear him say "Hand" to get me to come play with him, or "more" to have me cuddle/tickle him more.