Ani,
It strikes me that I have not taught you who my heroes are.
I would think this would have been a subject that would have come about through normal conversations between us.
Now I am forced to think specifically about things I wish to tell you.
Certainly Jesus is one of my heroes. He had the power over the entire universe, but chose not to use it, even to save his own life. He had the same temptations that I have, but he was able to resist them.
He had fears, even to dying, but he overcame them.
I speak to you of these qualities for two reasons.
I wish that I had them in more effectiveness,
and that I think that you have them in higher quality than I.
That makes _you_ one of my heroes.
You really have power over nothing, requiring our care for everything.
Yet you choose to show yourself to us. You hold nothing back. Where others (and possibly myself) would retreat from the world that wounded us, you _choose_ to bring your love and joy to others.
I would believe that, were I in your situation, I would be tempted to resent everything, and have that fester towards a hatred and antipathy towards everything. Again, you show your hero quality here. I have never seen you have anything but love that cannot help but shine out from you.
Of course I have other heroes, from science, music, etc. Even Mommy represents a massive positive influence in my life, but I’m not sure the word “hero” is what she is to me. None of my other heroes have influenced those parts of me that form a foundation of who I want to be.
Ani, you are one of my top heroes, and I want to be more like you.
