I was talking to Ani while getting her ready for bed, and I stumbled upon the subject of whether Ani ever thought of becoming a Mommy. I know Christy has thought of it since she was a little girl, no older than Ani was when she got hurt. I asked if she had ever dreamed of babies. Then I said “Your babies would have been beautiful”. Then everything crashed down. The enormity of what I had just said hit me and I started crying and saying it over again. The loss of possible futures is also grieved. Ani was an amazingly beautiful baby, and has she had the opportunity to have her own, they would have been beautiful also.
Tuesday, July 11, 2023
Tuesday, January 3, 2023
Gift from Ani
I was just given the most amazing gift from Ani.
I was telling her how much I love her and that I want to live with her as long as I can on this earth. Also that I never knew how much I could love a child before I became a parent.
She gave me the biggest YES and smile and look of Joy I remember seeing, giving me the impression that she understands and loves me so much back.
Then,
I asked her if there was ever a time where I did not tell her I love her as many times as she wanted. She gave me an immediate and big NO.
What better gift could you get from your child?
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