I was talking to Ani while getting her ready for bed, and I stumbled upon the subject of whether Ani ever thought of becoming a Mommy. I know Christy has thought of it since she was a little girl, no older than Ani was when she got hurt. I asked if she had ever dreamed of babies. Then I said “Your babies would have been beautiful”. Then everything crashed down. The enormity of what I had just said hit me and I started crying and saying it over again. The loss of possible futures is also grieved. Ani was an amazingly beautiful baby, and has she had the opportunity to have her own, they would have been beautiful also.
