CNN Story: "I lost both my boys"

A quote from a Dad down in Joplin.
I know how he feels, to a point.
I don't know how it feels to lose _all_ your children.
But I know how it feels.
In my own selfish and self-defensive way, I tell myself that nobody can know how _I_ feel.
I that part of me I ask: "Why wasn't the whole world crying yesterday at 5:08PM?"
How can anyone look at Thomas the Tank Engine without feeling sad?
My pain is deep and incomprehensible, even to me, how can anyone understand?
Then I come back.
I know that parents lose children every day.
Through accidents and through violence.
Through negligence and through intent.
There are sometimes more emotions mixed in other than the loss.
I know that even apart from the feelings of loss, there is this feeling
of both emptiness and an overflowing of love at the same time.
Your love for a child doesn't stop at their death.

When I read of parents losing children, I can only pray for them.
It's too hard to try to understand, or to extend my emotions to _their_ place.
That would destroy me.
To feel the loss of every child I read about, that would destroy me.

I know that children are special to God, and I know that at some point I'll be dancing with Ani and Nate and Micah in a big ring-around-the-rosie circle.
We'll get dizzy and fall down and go "boom".
We'll laugh, and do it all over again.
That's Heaven enough for me, though I know it's much more.