Monday, August 29, 2011

I am in anguish

Lord, I am in anguish,

I cannot forget the Ani before the tornado,
yet I cannot use her as a benchmark for the current Ani.
Why must I think of Ani as 2 different persons?
How much of her is "in there", God?
How much should I talk about singing? About dancing?
Does "never giving up on Ani" mean that I won't be satisfied until she can do what the old Ani could do?
Where would she be satisfied?
I can certainly still laugh all the way down to my heart with Ani.
I love her more every day, and tell her so.
Oh that I could love Ani as simply as Micah does,
I am burdened with more knowledge than he has.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

love the old ani, and love the new ani. they both love you. the old ani and new ani are different and will always be different. you are different and you will forever be different. hers is physical yours is emotional. she is and always will be the same your same ani.