Thursday, April 21, 2016

I'm drowning

KI feel like I'm drowning and have tried all the ways to swim, but nothing works. Then someone asks me if there's another way to swim. 

I have tried every way I know to help Micah's behavior. I've tried every form of consequence, but nothing really stick. I've asked how he's feeling so many different ways, I wonder if he feels like he's drowning too. 

I'm praying every which way from Sunday to give me guidance or give him guidance. 

I'm staying with him forever, and I have told him that many times. It's not possible for me to give up. 

Is this what it's like to be tortured?  Feeling like you're dying, but you don't?

I feel like I'm failing him in all I do. And if I'm asked for more ideas, then those will fail him too. Right now it feels like every mistake in my life, every bad word I said to a crazy driver is a failure leading to his downfall. 

1 comment:

Unknown said...

I don't know what issues you are having with your son, but I encourage you to talk with his teachers and your doctor to get advice on how to handle the situation you are in and where you might get some answers. I work with Special Needs students in an elementary school setting,and I understand your frustrations. I see students everyday with various behavior and learning disabilities. Our staff works very hard to find that sometimes elusive but positive way to help them. It can be a never ending struggle, but don't stop trying! Prayers to you!