I love you

Ani,
When I feel the bump on your head as I wash your hair,
and know that it's in your brain,
I love you.
When I see the scars on your left hip from surgery,
and I know that you'll have a matching one on the right soon,
I love you.
When I see your light fade from your eyes during a seizure,
and then it returns to me,
I love you.
When I praise you when your eyes are working,
I love you.
When I remember that the shunt and the surgeries were decided by me,
I love you.
When I think that if I just gave you a little more love, or had less failings, that you would be healed,
I love you.